I need to vent...no one seems to care what i feel or think anymore...i'm a fucking nuisance aren't i...they seem to listen but nothing comes out of anything. why can't i be a part of your life? why can't we share random stories about our day, how classes are going, even a simple hi? why does she get to spend all this fucking time with you when you don't give me the light of day? no one wants to listen to me anymore, everyone has their own problems to deal with, they sure don't want to deal with listening to me, do they. you say it's so i can get over you...why don't you tell her to do the same so you can get over her...it sounds like a fucking double standard what's going on.

people think i want to be left alone...I HATE BEING ALONE! i loathe it with a passion...it works kinda like reverse psychology with me, i guess. whatever you guys think, think the opposite. i hate the feeling where i'm all by myself and there are other people whom i care about around but they don't give a fucking damn about how you're doing..they just want everything to go away and go on their merry fucking lives. no one wants to listen to me anymore. i might as well just get run over by a car.

why am i not at UCSD...fucking following my heart. got me nowhere.