Wow. Hard to believe it's back to irvine, back to school mode. i miss vacaction 10 times over already. Having 3 hardcore science classes on a friday really makes one think of the wonders of how free and timeless vacation felt. but, it's kinda good to be back, away from the pestering of my family...as much as i know that they love me, it does get to you, you know? sometimes i'd just rather be alone from them. so being back down here is good in that sense, and i also get to see everyone i didn't see over vacation, and those that i did saw, on a more regular basis.

Ah, my cousin Kate turns 21 today...happy birthday! 5 more months for me. She said something interesting to Melissa at the new year's party that caught my attention...she said i pulled a Felicity. i guess that's partly true. So much for following my heart, but that's what it said at the time. And people say follow your heart, don't they? I guess they should also add, follow your heart if it and your head agree.

So yeah, things down here are still somewhat uncomfortable and strained, but there's not much anyone can do with the way things are. It seems like every question i ask is an interrogation, and every statement i say...i can't really explain, but in a sense it feels like no one cares; like a question's asked just for the hell of it and the asker doesn't really want to know the answer, he/she just asked out of courtesy. which totally breaches some aspect of friendship...getting to know people and genuinely caring about what goes on in their lives. taking some sort of interest, you know? i don't know, things are just....weird right now.