is it better to know things and feel all emotional or is it better to not know and spare yourself the misery of knowing?

it's good to be honest and open, but yeah....depends on the circumstances. don't you hate it when your head and heart aren't on the same page? i should know better. i should not care. and i shouldn't wish a big fight would happen (but it's so tempting...)

i need outlets. no, not stores. piano's been good. too bad my house has had people in it so i can't play. i feel self conscious if people are around when i play. i just want to play, you know? friends are good. outside ones especially. i need more. scrapbook is good. nice memories. reading, sometimes...if i'm really into it. but i'm definitely not seeing any romantic comedies in the near future, as much as i like them and am a hopeless romantic myself.

also - things happen right when you don't want them to, or least expect it. like being picked on a jury. i was so ready to just hang out in the waiting room and take naps for the following week, but nooooo....i get picked, and they keep me! so i'm an alternate juror now. at least it's an alternate, that's fine with me.

quote for the week: "Just because i'm smart doesnt' mean i can't act stupid" ~Camp Nowhere (...whatever happened to Jonathan Jackson?)